dreams.

i wrote this just because people are always askin how i got started with this new "poetry/singing/guitar" thing, and all i can honestly say is that i went to an open mic night, and got discovered. LITERALLY. i wasnt lookin to be, i was just venting cause my boyfriend broke up with me, but hey, different blessings happen to different people.
so yeah. thats that.
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i was born into a culture
where we perfect our talents for money
reject our companions for something
that quickly divides into nothing

i'm being chased by the masses
to hit up studios and lay tracks
but everybody is neglecting to inform me
that this often involves being asked to lay on my back

but i retract my steps
cause im not searching for fame
i did one open mic night
and now everybody's chanting my name

in a society where everyone is a
rapper
model
singer
or actor
i dont fit into any mold
cause im just a beautiful disaster

and i guess partially
a part of me
is starting to feel bad
cause all my life
all i've ever been equipped with
is a pen and a pad
to express my emotions

and with a swift motion
i stain permanent lines formed from trees with ink
as if it were bloodcoming from my pores and seams

i breathe life onto pages
with alphabetical transformations
i give birth to stanzas and verses
as i contract with daily frustrations

i spit fire onto paper
and spew fuel with my pen
and i ignite my soul with literature
from beginning
until end

i was never meant to perform
and i dont crave the lights or stage
i dont get the rush of adrenaline
that everyone else seems to portray

im content with performing in my living room
and reciting on my bed
im satisfied with singing to my wall
the melodies in my head

i already have a 9 to 5
so i dont really need to extra cash
and im gratified with being sex-less
so im not down for giving up ass

even tho im an artist
things are hardly what they seem
cuz i see
poets
musicians
and writers
constantly chasing a dream
but since this is all i've ever known
its the dream thats chasing me.